Chapter · XIV

no, i'm not dead. my offline life has demanded a lot of my attention lately, specifically school. it's work, work, and more work. and then research on colleges, scholarships, loans, etc. my head is spinning. i don't want to grow up ;__; i guess i haven't done a lot of work in a while...i've been slacking off. i must stay on track so my 3rd quater grades don't drop. i am determined...sort of. i will overcome this adversity and my cold (*sneezes*)! then, i shall return to the online life and with a vengeance! bwahahaha!!!!

these past two weeks have been insanely hectic and as a result i've been sleep deprived. for the first time since forever i slept on average of 5 hours a day. luckily, after 12 hours of sleeping from yesterday to today the dark circles under my eyes are beginning to recede.

i don't know how many tests i can take, how many essays i can write, and how much research i can do until i have a mental breakdown x__x i've taken 4 tests and 1 midterm in the last week and my head hurts from all the studying. i know for sure that i failed my test on forces for physics and my midterm for math. that's not a modest way of saying i passed but didn't pass with a 90. i mean seriously fail, as in below 70! hopefully my other test scores balances everything out...or i shall be doomed when report cards come out on the first of february.

regents week starts on the 24th. it's a week that high school students in nyc get off on to study for standardized exams they may have to take during that week. i have to take the english regents during this week. it spans for 2 days. 2 essays per day with reading and listening components. the essay part worries me. i forgot how to write a proper essay x___x;; hopefully my brother will order a DVD player in time for me to watch my CCS dvds (that arrived yesterday, yayyyy) so i can destress. *strokes CCS box sets* =)

damn it! i did it again. i procrastinated. adknfkajff!!! now i have to do 14 note cards for my us history paper, my computer science flash project (which i haven't quite started ^^;;), and my english essay outline. crap.

next year is my final year in high school and i've been thinking a lot about my future. i've been thinking about colleges, majors, and things of the sort. i still have no idea what i want to do. on the one hand i want to study a major that will help me find a practical job. on the other hand, i've been so inspired by f. scott fitzgerald that i want to puruse a writing major.

i want to write a romantic tragedy, but that's a hard task. tons of great ideas have been used already. i wonder how many ideas are left on the bottom of the barrel, if any. in the end i suppose i'll back out on this ridiculous idea. i haven't the patience or devotion to write a story. heck, i can't even complete a fanfiction.

in other news, my domain expired. i was thinking about geting a new domain when this struck me -- how long will i be web designing? i have an on and off interest in web design. a simple solution is to get hosted somewhere but having a domain of your own allows more freedom. still, 5 gb is a ridiculously large amount of space. but that's the cheapest in the long run =__= maybe i can just purchase a domain name and get it hosted on someone's plan. anyone want to host this homeless girl? *smiles sweetly* haha. anyway...

i watched the us skating spectacular on abc today. figure skating is amazing -- it encompasses ice skating, gymnastics, and dance! one word: wow.

I admit it. I have a problem. I am a television adict. I watch more than 3 hours of television daily, most of which does not do my brain justice. All I'm left with in the end is random facts concerning a lot of nothing. I want to quit, but television is just too entertaining! This year I've expanded my list of shows. Let's view the superfluous list!

Monday
nothing. waiting for Prison Break to come back.

Tuesday
- Gilmore Girls at 8pm
- Law and Order: SVU at 10pm

Wednesday
- One Tree Hill at 8pm
- Criminal Minds at 9pm

Thursday
- Beauty and the Geek 2 at 9pm

Friday
- Close to Home at 9pm
- Numb3rs at 10pm

Saturday
- Smallville Season 1 episodes at 4pm
- Alias Season 1 episodes at 5pm
- Friends, Will and Grace, and Everybody Hates Raymond from 6pm-8pm

Sunday
- The Simpsons at 8pm
- The War at Home at 8:30pm
- Family Guy at 9pm

I hereby deem this LJ account for every day rambling purposes. Don't expect grammatically correct sentences or perfect spelling (though spelling errors are probably minimal since I consider myself a pretty good speller). I just need a place to unload my concerns, my stresses, and all that jazz.